rant?

i am bored. i'm chewing gum right now and that makes me happy. trying to get vibrato on my sax by doing the "chewing" motion does not work. where can one find meatloafs album, "welcome to the neighborhood?" it is one of his sweetest albums. "where the rubber meets the road, welcome to protection mode used to be sex was a fine hello, where the rubber meets the road!" hewitt said the most amazing thing to me today, many of you have heard but i want to share it to the blogosphere, he said he really liked my insight in my writing section of the test for the purpose of death in "shadrach." it made my day, and it was in the morning so it was a good long day. i've got soooo many thoughts running through my head, so many decisions, feelings, randomness, it makes me sick. drama is going good i think, i hope i'm able to pull off tony. i smell something fruity right now and i'm not sure what it is, wait, my sister just got out of the shower. the door to the bathroom is about twenty feet away, how come i'm smelling it? that doesn't matter. i want to watch "the brave little toaster," anyone else? the drama lock-in should be a lot of fun, can't wait. also the costa rica trip in less than two weeks. should i or shouldn't i? a lot of happiness then in return a lot of pain. so anyways, is it wrong that i like gloria estefan? "turn the beat around!" am i a good person, am i nice? i want a BIG hug. when you guys see me tomorrow will you hug me? that'll be much appreciated. i feel alone right now. i haven't felt depressed and all of this for a long time, now all of a sudden it's starting to come back, i don't like it. registration tomorrow for my last year at highschool. one more year after this, wow. where should i go to college, the cities is most likely, but maybe new york. i've got to take the act then send out applications, then get accepted, then visit. wierd al is extremely talented, you'd be lying if you say he isn't. decisions, AHHHHHHH!!! i am so confused. i'm messed up. i just can't wait until tomorrow. see you around.