In Other News...

The last post is depressing. (Sorry Pat!)
So... Here's a new one.
How's the college search going for all of you? Where are you looking/considering?
I'm really thinking Columbia College, in Chicago. I wish I could get into Concordia because it seems like a really cool place, but I'm thinking that I do not have the necessary GPA.
How about majors? I'm curious as to where all of you lean on this subject. I'm thinking I'll go Technical Theatre, and Creative Writing if I can double it. Interesting how I put theatre as a higher priority than writing, but I think that's how I would prefer it.
Thoughts?

I'm done

So unless something big happens within the next two months, this will be my last show. I just don't have the drive, and the passion I once thought I had. I would look at the script, devour it, take it every where with me, but now it just sits in my bag until I have to use it to say a line.

I feel horrible that this is what it comes to, and if my passion doesn't return, I feel even worse for taking parts away from people in this play.

I don't know.

since nobody cares about blogs

well here i am living my nonexistent life in the realm of reality with nothing but a butter knife, three marbles, a copy of the brainerd daily dispatch, my saxophone and chap stick. fighting fire with fire along the dimensional world of water in the alternate universe that was created but was abanded because it made "no sense." well some people may want to live there for the reasons they don't want to live here, because there it is much worse than here but they don't care because it makes "no sense." in the world where everything depends on how you want it to because nothing happens without something happening before that so it will make sense for the other to happen. well no one who wants to live else where cares about what happens here if they want to live there or else where. what's the point to anything if nothing matters in the end, why does everything need to be about getting this, doing that, finding the "correct" answer. who the hell knows what right and wrong means? deciding what's right and wrong is very biased. who was the one that said 2+2=4? what gives them the right to decide that, what if they're wrong and everything built upon what they decided is wrong? i'm just saying how do we know that 2+2=4, what if it actually equals 3, and 3+3=8. why is everything based off what they decided thousands of years ago. why does every piece of literature have to have some sort of meaning behind it? what if some crazy person wrote something down, not knowing what they're writing and somebody else finds it and starts making ridiculous assumptions about the meaning of it and say they author wrote it for a reason deep in the writing. why the hell does everything supposed to be done with a purpose or supposed to carry some sort of meaning behind it? WHY! and why is there religion, why did religion get made up? was man feeling alone and scared and needed reasons for things he didn't understand or didn't want to and needed something to be there because he felt alone and wasn't able to get along on his own accord. it makes people narrow minded at times after they're forced to believe during their childhood of all the power and how everything works according to some book. i can't even put into words my feelings on this matter seeing as how they are all over the place so i'm just going to stop now. why does everything that even rubs against me the wrong, even the slightest thing, make me so upset that i don't even feeling like talking? why do i make such little things into big things? why do i worry about the future on night and the next could care less about it? why am i so messed up? why do i take solace in the fact that a few months from now there will be snow on the ground, everything is dead, it's really cold out and it's darker? while fighting fire with fire along the dimensional world of water in the alternate universe one finds oneself in a peculiar and dissident entanglement. what does one do in that position? the answer is whatever you feel answers it the best, you decide what's right or wrong or if anything is ever right or wrong. no rules here with correctness or ridiculous meanings, it's not determined by them, it's determined by you if you want or it can just stay undetermined. however you feel at the moment you create it's meaning is what it means. doesn't matter what someone else says. but the other place is a land of chaos where nothing can be what you think it is without you thinking of it before it comes to mind. it makes no difference if this rambling, idiotic and senseless post means anything to you, but i will bring some of the other place here and have you decide the meaning of this. there is no meaning to it untill you the reader makes one, so if you want this to have a meaning, decide for yourself what it means and believe it.

dain

you guys should get a kick out of this

http://youtube.com/watch?v=RTrYE4a1BmE

the comic is not called "hoe", it's called "shoe"

hmmm

so the marine corps called me today. i talked to the guy for a while, he seemed like a pretty good guy and loves what he does. i didn't say that i wanted to join, but if my plans (if you can call them that) don't work out i told him that i would consider it. i don't want to join. who knows what will happen in my future.

Mine's bigger than yours

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXBeu7o9uUM

Ooo ooo that smell

The smell of hippies is back and stronger than ever.

all right guys, what are your ACT scores?

this song has been stuck in my head for the longest time, listen to it and you'll see why.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=OgwETZKNPZc

Coming Home

So... I'm coming home on Saturday (as in four days from now) and I've decided that we should all do something. Is there going to be theatre on the hill next Tuesday? Because if there is, that is fairly convenient for me to see people, so long as people show up there. Any other ideas? We should take advantage of the time before the fourth of july or so because then we know for sure that I at least will not be working.

chick corea is a musical genius

http://youtube.com/watch?v=zikTA3dYOKQ

Wine Tasting Festival And Hanging Out With Brenna

Corey (American Teacher on the base), Marcel (Brenna's German boyfriend), Me, Shayla, Brianne (Canadian Au Pair in Germany), Brenna (Shayla's childhood best friend, now an Au Pair in Germany)

Hanging Out Watching Charlotte's Web With Two Of Brenna's Family's Kids. Can You Tell Shayla And I Are Sisters?

Widely Acknowledged As The Most Successful Lego Roof Ever Made

College Stuff

We need to plan this private college thing, which means what days do you guys have off the week of the 25-29 because that is our week to visit the private colleges of the cities. Secondly, what colleges do you want to go to? I hope to keep all of our fun compact to one day but if it turns into two, I'm fine with that. Transportation. I'm gone next week so try to put stuff together, I'll be back friday to help ties thing up. Its crunch time bitches, so we need this to happen NOW. Thank you and have a nice day.

Theatre on the hill is still planned for tuesday the 12th, at 7:00.

Überraschungen (Surprises)

Well, all of last week I was running around in eastern Germany and staying with my host sisters grandparents. It was really fun, aside from the fact that I was sick for three of the days I was there. But I got back to my house on Tuesday to find my sister Shayla waiting there for me. I was not expecting Shayla to randomly turn up in Germany to see me, but now that she is here I am incredibly happy and really surprised. It amazes me that so many people knew back home and nothing slipped out, I love surprises so hooray. So all of Tuesday we just hung out, caught up on recent news, went out to a Greek restaurant, and then we played cards until three in the morning. Wednesday we went to Stuttgart, which is the capital of Baden Württemburg, which is the state I live in. That was fun, we went to Subway and they had Mountain Dew. I have not found it anywhere else here, not that I've been looking, but still. It made me happy, and even though it was way too expensive I bought one. I had to. And so that was fun, and tomorrow we are taking a train to Kaiserslautern to see Shayla's best friend from when she was younger who's living there. And then we are going to go to a wine tasting festival and crash there, and then come back the next morning. Then Sunday I think we're going to go hiking in the mountains for like five hours, which will be fun too. Then she goes home on Monday and I have to go back to school. And then 19 days from then I will be saying my goodbyes and boarding a plane that will bring me back to hellos. Can't wait, but I am sad that I have to leave this all behind, at least for now. Until whenever it is that I can afford to come back. I want to see all of you, soonish after I get home. Should we plan a trip to Applebees or Perkins or somewhere before the Winnipeg kids take off? Any ideas? I'm open to suggestions. But I will take my leave, and let you all get on with life.

good news

with the upcoming ACT test on saturday, i've been doing a little studying and i took a practice test. my scores are as follows:

Subscores:

English-23
Math-24
Reading-32 (thank you Lit)
Science-25

my mean of the scores is a 26, and to me that is good news.

burning love

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Ntgij-u_27k

28 Weeks Later

So yesturday, I went to St. C.oud to see 28 weeks later and it was a pretty damn good movie, I'm not sure if Donny would like it because of his taste for traditional Zombies, but all in all I was tense through the whole thing. The ending, for all of you to know, basically tells everyone that the there will be a third one. So if any of you wonder why I keep a ton of knifes in my room, I'm just waiting for a zombie apocolypse.

update

well, i haven't posted for awhile, what's new? i've got sweet job at rafferty's pizza, first day was yesterday and today was my second day. there i was, running down the streets of nisswa at 7:58 a.m. i had to be at work at 8:00. but i made it and no harm done, it was fun. i got to make dough today, and cut peppers, i really enjoy it so far. and i don't even know what to think about Pan's Labirynth, i'm not sure if i like it or not. that's all i really have to say. i think i might go take a nap now.

ND

North Dakota still manages to SUC ASS. Hey look a tree, with a bird in it! astounding.

This wasn't due or anything, sorry for the cussing.

Their is a billboard with a nun playing golf on it. What would the pitch be for that golf course? Perhaps something to do with virgin greens. Yeah. I need more Catholic training. Why? I do not know the answer to if a why a nun wears the black and white get up.

Anyway, the sign got me thinking.*thinking bad*. I should open up a chain of religious mini-golf things... That is so dumb.

I'm realizing as I'm typing why I do not blog. I mean what is the point of updating a blog when we get comments from about five different people, and we see these people throughout the day, so why not just say it to them when you see them. Our attempt at setting up a blog for our "thespians," appears to be a giant failure. We never post anything that needs to be said. Well maybe one out of the 150 or so we have had. But does one make up for all the other random crap we do. Not really. It is nice knowing that Mac is okay in Germany, but she only has to post because she can not directly speak to us. Every other person on this blog sees each other through out the day. God damnit fucking rambling on about one topic that could have been summed up in one sentence.

Bad day today. Not to bad up until sixth hour. I used to love sixth hour. Deebs was a fun teacher, and the subject matter was some what interesting, but somewhere in their all enjoyment in that class was lost. Sitting in sixth hour, slacking off, and Deebs passes out grade reports. My grade not what I expected, not what I liked, but what should have been expected. When you put no effort in a class, and hope to have a respectable grade you are a fool, or one of the people that magically pull grades out their asses. It occured to me in this class just how much I am fucking myself over. Why did I put zero effort in school? I knew that I would have to, but I didn't. This is beyond procrastination. This is lazy. But i just do not have the drive needed to actually do work. I don't hate school by any means. I even enjoy most classes, but I just won't put effort forth. Why?

These thoughts automatically brought me to college. What if I don't get in? My GPA is moderate at best, my community service is nonexistent, and knowing my luck I'll fuck up the ACT and end up with a 23. Then what. It dawns on me sometimes that I may have to lower my standards and accept a public college. But I do not want that. I almost think I would just quit before I would do that. Even If I were to get into college, what would I accomplish? I look at my skills * Napoleon Dynamite* and I'm not exceptional at anything. The things I enjoy would get me nowhere. English? My best hopes would be taking Hewitts job. Prick. Theater? I couldn't cut it. Some people can. We compare ourselves to the people near us. Steve is amazing, and is passion is unprecedented. I'm not even the best in my grade, and I've already gone over how I;m to lazy to better myself. God damnit when did college, and a career become such a pressing issue. Why do I have to hang around with people that are so smart? That doesn't make one feel insignificant or anything. You can do one thing, and they top you without trying. Then what happens. You decide to put effort into classes. I put everything into a couple, and got nothing in return. I am a greedy bastard. Thinking I need a compliment everytime I do something good.

I do not even know about life sometimes. You think you can trust a friend, but then you can't tell if they are your friend or not. I wish that the good guys wore white, and bad guys black. Your friends encouraged you, and didn't put you down. But we, or at least I, can't have that.

Godfuckingdamnit their is a borderline between ranting, getting off your chest, and being emo. That line is so lame.

Just when you think life is just their holding the lube it hands you a gold nugget. It wants to prove to that their is still hope for a person in this world. Whether its a person, an idea, or a pat on the back. Life is tricky like that. Damn you Aerosmith ruining my bad mood. Making me remember good moments.

Yeah, maybe I'll post again. I need my own blog. The thespians did not need this. Merry Christmas.

HUG!

HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG.

This man is Great.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=BKIjiqVs5yc

Yes...more more Whitacre. This sond is about the various Animal Crackers you will find in a bag of animal crackers...

P.S. Yes thats him directing, I'm not gay but yeah...you know.

Alles Gute

Hello friends. How is everything going? Hopefully quite well. All is well over here in Germany, it's a beautiful day again after the past week of clouds and rain. How is AP Hell going for everyone? You're what, half way through? I have no idea when any of the tests are, so the most I can say is that I hope they have gone or do go well. I know Lit was on Thursday, so how did it go? Things ended up getting really messed up with trying to send a test to me here, and since my school here never responded to the BHS administration, I didn't take it. And so instead of only having one test next year as I was originally intending when I chose my courses, I will be taking five. Four of which are classes that I will have had only the year before. So I don't look forward to that at all, but it happens I guess. I'll live. I'm just bummed that I wasted so much of my time here studying for Lit when it turns out I'm not even taking it this year. But how'd it go for those that did? What was your open ended essay?
In other news, as I have said all is going well. I have a long weekend coming up next week and then I think a week or two after that I have a two week break from school. Ah, you just have to love the German school system. I have almost been here for a month and that doesn't seem real to me. It feels like maybe two weeks, sure sign that it feels like home and time is flying. The first two weeks of being here were kind of hard, it just took a while to become adjusted to life in a different country and living with a different family... But the people I am living with have made it as easy as they could. They are really a wonderful family. It is so strange for me to be living in a household like this, considering my family back in the states is almost never all home at the same time, and there always seems to be someone around that doesn't live there. And here, they eat at least one meal (usually like three) together every day. It happens maybe once every six months in my house in the states, not including holidays. So it's definitely a change and I am still not entirely used to be asked if I need anything constantly. Seriously, it is unusual if an hour passes without someone in the family asking me if I need anything.
All in all, things are way cool here. It's Europe though, so that is to be expected. I still want to try and hop over to Italy while I'm here, so that I can cross that off of my list of things to do before I die. Apparently it's really cheap to fly in Europe, so maybe I'll get to go during this two week break coming up. I'm also going to Berlin over that time span, but probably only for a few days. But anyway, I should probably get going and allow you all to move on with your lives. I hope you survive AP Hell and that the school year winds down nicely for you all.

Whitacre

So if a person walks up to me and asks me who Eric Whitacre is, I am liable to hit them in the face and say, "Only the composer of our time!" Seriously, I bought a C.D. with his pieces on it and it is insainly great, not to mention he made a song called, "Godzilla Attacks Tokyo." This man is a well established composer with many years left it him, ohh I can't wait for more Whitacre.

all i know is that we get to play this song for band.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEHO1iSjnSc

mas pics

clouds

clouds

curve

yeah

landscape

awwww

tourists!

landscape

i like this one

landscape

landscape

river

landscape

pics

Grrrrrrr

pretty

trees in costa rica grow sideways

river

ahhhhh!

lizard

you see

ooooh

it's really wierd

even bridges

bullet ant

tree

whoa

yep

yes

exam

who hates government? I DO!!!!! ap exam tomorrow and i'm sitting here blogging, oh well. i still wouldn't have taken regular cause that would have been like 100 times more boring. but atleast i didn't drop it like a few others i know did. speaking of that, how is it that someone who dropped two of their ap classes this year will be able to do as many as nine or ten next year? just a thought.

and i leave you with this wonderful scene from a great movie, see if you can find how it relates to this post.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgMxaq_coRw

OMG!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tm6qCnDu8Qo

more pics

Coffee
Group

Before coffee

After coffee

Mysterious trail at hot springs by volcano.

Me in the shadow of the volcano.

Volcano

Volcano

Looks like a person laying down

Giant iguana

Landscape

Landscape

Landscape

Family cat

I Would Like to Propose a Toast

Here's one for our amazing seniors. May your lifes hold cherishing memories of your high school drama career. You gave them tears, you gave them the giggles, and yes, you made their lives blissful, along with all of ours. Thank you for the times, I know that you were, and still are a phenominal part of my life. Thank you...Thank you...Thank you. Cheers.....Here Here.

Marshall

So I though I should fill you guys in on what has happend in the exciting town of marshall. Basically: we sang, we won, we played video games, we sang some more, we talked about crushes that which just basically made the whole weekend crap because I wanted to get away from that stuff, we sang some more, I learned about into the wild from kate, and people just wouldn't shut up so yep I hope I was able to fill you in on all that you guys missed. Also I learned not to eat swans stuff because it is made out of little kid's dreams, and their hearts.

el teatro nacional and cake

blur

chandelier

hand touching stage

oh yeah

stage

ohhh

seats

lights

lights

statue

chairs

lights

entree to cafe

Fryderyk and i

the theatre

the theatre

cake