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what is the meaning of life? what is the meaning of love? how did the universe come into existence? what if life were like a musical? was there anything before the universe? if so, what was it? are there different dimensions in the universe? when is the end? why can't i get good vibrato on my saxophone? why do i not follow my feelings? why do i hold back and not open up? why do i love musicals so much? why do i look forward to a few days a week to see someone? what do you call that? why the hell was there a 8-10 point buck in the middle of town? why does meagan always try to make me open up? why does being alone, in the dark and the cold appeal to me so? why do i care and then at the same time not care? why can i be cold and heartless sometimes and other times the exact opposite? why do i embrace life one day and the next not give a rats ass about it? what the hell is this? why the hell am i here; or you? damn, that feels good to get off my chest.